This is just one of those nights

When I have to write a ridiculous amount of crap just to get it out of my head..I need to wash my face, I need to lose weight, I need to pass my exams, I need to get to 6th form, I need to stop fucking my life up, I need to stop bleeding, I need to get better at writing, I need to read more, I need to open my windows, I need to open my eyes, I need to wear factor 60 suncream, I need to travel, I need to be open and passionate and everything I can be, I need to stop bearing grudges, I need to let go, I need to be strong, I need to work on my insecurity, I need to get over my addiction to myspace, I need to quit smoking, I need to take up a hobby, I need to get a job, I need to get some a levels, I need to get some ambition, I need to control the wayward thoughts, I need to stop being so morbid, I need to get a grip, I need to aplogise, I need to call my oldest friend and tell her I still love her like a sister, I need to help the homeless, I need to earn money so I can give it to charity, I need to be cool, I need to have sex, I need to feel, I need to sleep more, I need to watch more sunrises, I need to watch more sunsets, I need to find hope, I need to understand myself, I need to understand everyone else, I need to stop being so shallow, I need to feel comfortable with myself, I need to feel comfortable in summer winter spring AND autumn, I need to help you out, I need to forget, I need to forgive, I need to not regret, I need to stick to it, I need to stop running away...but most of all, I need to learn how to fucking live.